Making Choices.

So last night I was totally stoked. We had auditions for Once Upon a Mattress. I get to the theatre...and it's all downhill from there. Needless to say, I didn't get cast. For me, this is like hell. Until now, I've been in every show I've auditioned for. What angers me more is that there are people who are quitting the show because they got a part in the chorus, and they think they're too good for it. There is a spot on the audition form that asks for your preferred role. My friend Jaylene was smart enough to say she only wanted a large role. She didn't get cast, but that didn't stop other people from getting cast either. Instead, there are people who said they will accept any role, and now they're dropping the show. This basically says we all lose. So yeah, I think I have some right to be angry that I wasn't cast when there were plenty of spots I could have had if the other people hadn't have been so prideful.

But..that's something I have to deal with. I can't change it, so there's no reason to stay mad about it. Yeah, it hurts, but I've made a decision. I'm not going to let myself keep getting held back by little things like this. It isn' the end of the world, and I am grateful for the fact that I've been in every other one of the previous 7 shows I auditioned for.

Acting is a passion of mine. Being onstage makes me feel alive. It's a stress relief. It gives me a place to be and people to meet. I would probably be without friends here if it weren't for theatre. I wish things like this didn't happen,, but they do. I can only hope that the next audition goes better for me. Singing and dancing really aren't my thing anyway.

I guess it's difficult sometimes...but I'm trying to grow up. Not being in this show gives me opportunities to do other things that I would otherwise have missed out on, and I am going to jump at those chances.

Random thought of the day: It's impossible to bite your own neck.